Really Look at that Gift Horse
The other day I was given a little spiritual direction, that I am still bummed about. My temperament is such that I'm not bothered by much. It just rolls off me. Why? I dunno.
Maybe I'm just lazy.
Maybe I'm selfish and not worried about anything that doesn't affect me.
Maybe I'm such a people pleaser that I don't want anyone mad at me.
heh.
Hey, maybe I just trust God to handle everything.
I never thought much about why I'm like this, except to consider it a blessing. I always considered it a gift. I thought it was a gift from God.
Whenever I read or hear about "forgiveness," I feel my eyes glaze over. I have no one to forgive. No one has ever done anything to me that I've taken offense to. I may think that something someone said was stupid, but I wasn't hurt. I have ranted and raved, but I can't remember why, of for what reason. Isn't this a grace?
It turns out that I'm fooling myself. It would be a wonderful grace…
Maybe I'm just lazy.
Maybe I'm selfish and not worried about anything that doesn't affect me.
Maybe I'm such a people pleaser that I don't want anyone mad at me.
heh.
Hey, maybe I just trust God to handle everything.
I never thought much about why I'm like this, except to consider it a blessing. I always considered it a gift. I thought it was a gift from God.
Whenever I read or hear about "forgiveness," I feel my eyes glaze over. I have no one to forgive. No one has ever done anything to me that I've taken offense to. I may think that something someone said was stupid, but I wasn't hurt. I have ranted and raved, but I can't remember why, of for what reason. Isn't this a grace?
It turns out that I'm fooling myself. It would be a wonderful grace…